Friday, July 17, 2009

Another slap in the face!

Does anyone ever feel like the universe is conspiring against them? I try not to complain about my life, I know I have it much better than some, but today...well today has been a doosey! My day started out pretty good, the kids slept in, I was getting some cleaning done, and preparing for Taegan's birthday party this weekend. Then, I got a phone call. Those of you who know me know how excited I have been to start my new job at Ft. Payne. Alas, it was not meant to be. The phone call was from human resources at the hospital. Apparently, the economy is hitting the hospitals too! Their admissions have been low and their new CEO is not letting them hire anyone else this month (they said maybe next month). Keep in mind this is the Thursday before the Monday I was supposed to start. I already went through all my background checks, my drug screening, my TB tests and everything! To say I was crushed is an understatement! I sobbed uncontrollably for a good 30 minutes. I had not even applied anywhere else because this was supposed to be a sealed deal. I thought, seriously..., after all my family has been through the past few months, can I just not catch a break??? But, after wallowing in self-pity for a while, I decided that feeling like this was the work of the devil, trying to kick me while I was down, and I would have no part of it! So, today I have sent about 50 applications out all over northeast alabama and chattanooga. For some reason working at the hospital in Ft. payne is not part of God's plan for me right now and I have to accept that and move on with where I need to be and what I should be doing (when i find out what/where that is, I'll let you know). I thought of Proverbs 3:5-6 today
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight

So, I am asking all of you, my dear sweet friends, to please remember me and my family once again in your prayers. I NEED a job ASAP or we are going to be living in a cardboard box! I leave you all with the prayer that has been replaying in my head all day today, the Serenity Prayer:

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.

Thank you all for your love and prayers!


Elizabeth Hopper said...

Bless your heart! I know you were looking forward to that, I will continue praying that you find something real soon! Good Luck!

K. Tilley said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I know you were looking forward to being closer to home. Ya never know, something else might turn up that's close to home as well. One of my patients works on the same floor you were going to be on and I told her about how sweet you are and how much she would enjoy working with you and now i'm sad it won't all pan out. There are plenty of jobs posted in the Chatt. area. For some odd reason I like to look at the jobs available at the hospitals.....weird i know.....just dreaming about one day if i ever make it to RN Sorry for rambling so long, just ain't seen you in forever. Ain't been to church either....they are gonna kick me out and i ain't even a See ya later!

Carrie said...

Sorry to hear about your bad news. Just believe God closed that door to open an even better one for you.

Praying for you and your family!

Anonymous said...

I was so excited about us getting to work together also and was devastated when I got your phone call. I had to come home and talk to Clay about it and he was just as upset as I was, but I do truly feel that there is something bigger and better out there for you. Love you.


P.S. just as I was typing this you txt to tell me about your new job offer...Thank you God for answered prayers.

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