Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Never Stop, don't stop, can't stop.....

That's how I live my life. That's what runs through my mind everyday. There are just not enough hours in the day. I know I just had surgery, but I cannot just sit down people! It is starting to tick me off that people want me to lay around for weeks after a simple gallbladder surgery. Yes, I know I look like i am eight months pregnant with my swelled belly, but my feet and hands still work fine! Besides the normal 7-3 job, there are always dishes to be washed, laundry to be done, meals to prepare(or a drive-thru to go through), kids to bath, dress, play with , love and discipline, husbands to keep happy, bills to pay, yadayadayada.......need I go on? My daily commute is my time. That's when I gather my thoughts, when I pray, when I breathe. I don't stop because if I stop I might not ever get going again! My brain/body does not know what to do when it is not stressed or involved in some type of drama. Stillness is awkward and unsettling to me. So thank you to all the people who worry about me, but this is who I am. I am not saying its the smart way to be or the most ideal, but it is how I cope with life! Maybe it's my ego, I guess I should pray about that. I like being involved in things. I like doing things for other people. I like being needed and useful. I want to be a good worker for the Lord and to provide for my family. Don't get me wrong I have my own pity parties often, but I try not to complain about life because I know this one is not permanent. Complaining and groaning never makes me feel better, but doing something, doing anything does. Love you all!

Trying to be better
Karri

7 comments:

Shaunta said...

I have days where I HAVE to be doing something. But mostly, I have days where I just can't talk myself into it. LOL

I am sitting here at 1:10 in the morning reading your blog and singing "Don't stop...believin" after I read your title. Sad thing is, those are the only words I know to that song. It just takes like two words to send me off on a neverending song journey. Especially this early. Or late. Lert. There we go. LOL

K. Tilley said...

I like to be busy also but from time to time I just have to have a day where I make a massage apt and then chill out at home with a good book then I'm ready to go again. Your a nurse and you know what's what with your body and health so if you feel like doing something just go for it. If I have too much idol time I start thinking about stuff and get depressed so busy is good for me. Love ya

Carrie said...

Hubby "used to say", "would you please set down, you are making me tired just watching you." lol!!

I'm not one to be idle....but...here lately....hubby has been saying, "busy would be nice:)....we need groceries:)!!!"

Anonymous said...

You are one of the strongest people I know and there is absolutly nothing wrong with that. Everyone is different in how they handle stress and life in general. We both know however with both of us being nurses that most people dont bounce back as quick as you did. You are proof we just have to set our minds to do what we want to do and need to do.

You are such a blessing to me and my family and we love you dearly.

Tammy

Cheryl said...

I surely wish I had your energy! I can see the Koger in you. I know I keep telling you that but really, in the way you act, the things you say and really the way you look. I just can't help but be reminded! I enjoy being around you! Love You!

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Ducks and Books said...

I like the new back drop! I love you too!