Thursday, February 5, 2009

No more BIG MOMMA!

Hello, my name is Karri and I am addicted to food! At breakfast I think about what's for lunch. At lunch I think about what's at dinner. At dinner, I think about what I can eat while I am watching TV! It's really pathetic and I'm over it!

After a year of praying and 10 years of dieting (unsuccessfully) I have decided to take the big plunge! I am having the gastric Lap-Band procedure this Monday. Some people say this is the "easy" way to lose weight, but it's really not. It just forces you to do what you have no will power to do on your own.

I have been thinking about doing this for 3 years, but I couldn't ever get my act together to battle the insurance companies. However, about a year ago I was easily approved by BCBS of alabama. Then, mom and jr died and my whole world fell apart and I just didn't think I could mourn them and food too. When your approved you only have a year to take advantage of it or you have to start all over with mountains of paperwork. That meant I had to make a decision by the end of this month. So, with blessings from Jason, I scheduled it!

Why go this route, some people have ask? Well, as I said earlier, I have tried every diet known to man and admittedly failed at every single one of them. And over the past couple of months I have been examining my life, how I live it, and what kind of example I want to set for my children. I am angry at myself for letting my body get to this point. I am frustrated that even with prayer I haven't had the strength to do anything about it. I am embarrassed to have to shop in the "big girl" stores. I am sad to feel beautiful on the inside and not be able to portray that because of how i look on the outside. I want to be healthy. I want to eat smart and not be hungry. I want my husband and kids to be proud of me. Most of all, I want to be around to see my kids/future grandkids grow up and to grow old with my husband.

I get so angry sometimes when I think of mom and jr. If only they had never smoked or even stopped smoking when they found out how dangerous it was...they might still be here today. So, if I can save my children some pain down the road by doing something today, bygolly I am going to do it (Lord willing, of course)

I am not ashamed that I need help to do what it takes to lose the weight. I am just happy that there is some help available. I am going to chronicle my weight loss and emotions. I know it is not going to be easy physically or emotionally, but I am ready.

Me and my family have probably drained your prayer bank this year, but if you have any prayers left, please pray for us as we go through this together. I can't promise I will be in a good mood for the next few weeks, I am told it is a bit like going through drug addiction withdrawals but I know with prayer, good family, and supportive friends, I can and will get through this!

Love you all!
Karri


PS. The Church Cookbooks are back in! If you know someone who would like one, would like to take some to work, or know of a business that would sell some for us please contact myself, Jenny Mann, or Lisa McKay! All the proceeds go to the community recreation center!

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

I know you have been struggling with this decision and I know you have prayed long and hard. We will be praying for you thru it all. My friend at work that had it done in December is doing great and I am sure she would love to talk to you if she could help you in any way. Love you friend.

Tammy

Lisa @ The Preacher's Wife said...

Girl I am so proud of you and you know we'll support you 100 percent! We'll have Mario create you a special dish cuz girl, we can't lose our Mi Casita buddies.:))

Melissa Lea said...

Praying sweet blessings and quick recovery for you!

Leigh Anne said...

Girl I understand completely. Food has been my comforter for years. It is there for my when I'm excited, depressed, lonely. Well you know. I will pray for you on Monday and for your recovery.

K. Tilley said...

Girl, No One feels your pain like I do! We could talk for hours......let's do sometime! I sure will be praying on Monday! Love ya!

Deb said...

I will be praying for you. I know this was not an easy decision. I just want you to know that I think you are beautiful! And did you get my message about Bible Study? It is under the comments on your previous post.

Jen said...

ok so you know we think and feel the exact same way about this... worst part for me is that I didn't give birth to either of my kids, but you wouldn't know that by looking at me now. I weigh the most I ever have. Scott and I would both like to have it done, but we are trying to get pregnant so I have to wait. You will be in prayers. Keep me posted girl. I love you bunches!!!!!

Ducks and Books said...

Karri, I am so excited for you! I will be thinking about you and praying for ya! I TOTALLY understand what you are talking about with the addiction.

K. Tilley said...

It's Monday and I am praying for you right now! Love and best wishes!

Angie said...

Hey Cuz,

You are beautiful inside and out. Tim tells me every time he see you how BEAUTIFUL you are. We will always be here for y'all. We are saying a Prayer for you.

Love you,

Wendy L said...

So proud of you! Best wishes and you are certainly in my prayers and will be for the days to come.

Leigh Anne said...

Its Monday!! I will say a prayer for you. All the best!!!

Cheryl said...

I heard you came through the surgery well! You are a very strong person. Hang in there. I'm thinking you are beautiful, with a beautiful smile. Could that run in the family???;) Good Luck! Praying for you and Jason.